Bumble B's Garden

   I have a dream, extremenly childish, I could work and live with my families and friends, and even the future my lover...Then, after detailed preparations, this dream would come true in a near future!!!

    After that, I would never burden the expensive flight fees to go back home to stay with my parents, my relatives, my friends....anytime I could go back to stay with them, chat with them, play with them.

    Yesterday, I went visiting Rabbit home, and met QYM, which was a nice and harmoney experience--walking on the center of SH, chatting all the ways...It was luxurious to me while I was in GD province. At recent days, so many friends sent messages to me to bless my job hunting....A little bit moved....Thx for all of u!!!

    

  long long time no updating and democrating my garden--Bumble B's priavte garden~~almost 2 months since the last one~

  Today is sunday, weekend to most of all ...but except the financial accountants....especially me~I'm doing overtime jobs now~

   

   So tough is that my SONY CD player is on low battery and closed automaticly~~OH OH OH~turning to listen to my SAMSUNG k3 lo, whoes tone is not pure in comparison with CD player~

   Recently so many funny things around me....every day when coming to my office seat , I am always laughing at my cactus, my PC, and my colleagues...so strange....why this? I know the answer in my deep heart~xixixi~

   XIAONEI.COM is not funny now~because I am not a student, and am a socialer~there is a generation gap between socialers and students sometimes~or I am older( in worse ) or I am maturing( in better )

   Wish everyone is happy every day~

  Honestly, I really wanna go back to CD.

  The feeling just like going back home

  and, The truth is there is nothing I can do to adjust it to the normal

  Really...that's what my heart tells...

  Someone could be strange and wanna query it, but let u down, I also don't know the reasons

  The impulse is still alive...and floorfillering more often

  It is no doubt there is a long distance between the dream and the fact....but the time invtervene is just 2 hrs

  These days, always I patronize the travel websites  to check the flights price to CD....

  to escape the fact .....?

  to adjust the mind state。。。？

  .......

  They are just the excuses.....not the reasons...

  Best wishes and regards to my dears....

  Harway is always missing u...

 

   很多时候，心理牵挂的东西太多，反而会觉得生活其实是场battle，处处都是充满着自己需要去客服战胜的enemies！什么时候，我可以像武侠剧中的武者，立于山巅，向整个世界呐喊：生活不过如此，困难TMD脆弱.

   上个星期，酗酒了两次，但是只吐了一次。吐的自己心服口服，也在那一瞬间，将压抑在心理的种种牵挂与不快都吐完了！泪水，就在那不经意间狂奔。。。喝高兴了流眼泪，一个坏习惯，但是确可以流露自己的真情！抱着电话四处去寻求心理安慰，想来生活不该这样！应该向前看。。。

    听五花肉说，为了LOVE他要回成都一趟。当时以为他在说笑，结果经证实，他确实回成都了！在我现在的意识中，能够回成都的人真的很幸福。。。道听途说，QYM和CMF貌似要在国庆回成都，羡慕啊！

    前两天又参加了集团的中秋晚会，HIGH了一晚上，接着认识了一大帮网球技术不错的哥们，谈天说地，缘分啊！真的希望自己快点走出抱怨生活的思维，其实生活不该这样的！！